Here I Begin!

So here I am, back again after a short nap that my friend suggested...
i am not sure why, but sleep certainly seems to solve those problems of mine...
i guess it is a quiet escape from the moment.
-well i have decided to blog it all here like an online diary.
so for those who knows me and reads any of my stupidity will know me for sure in and out and those that havent seen the individual behind these writings... things will remain the same but a character that you give to the name: Suja.

so here i sit, a mondae eveniin, looking out the window.
a cloudy evening, as perfect as i would love it. no sun to blind ur eyes, or snow to freeze your fingers and toes or rain to make you fall in love.
just perfect like the flowers that spring up this season... freedom out into the world i guess
but then i feel i sit here like a lost soul... i mean.. wat exactly am i doing to myself, my situtation, my life ... i dunnno...
well i think my life is again reached at a crossroad...
juss when you are showered with enough problems, life`s blessings such as friends, happiness and etc juss seems to be dripping away from your finger tips.
As much as i try, there is a guilt feeling in my heart and then i think,

shouldnt i be weeping ... just like everyone else(lol i realize my question mark tab doesnt work - well you know this is where it goes) i dunt kno!
my mind is just so lost tht i do not even have an answer to that question...

as far as i kno and i have learnt from the 16 years of life ... i am not gonna force my heart to weep...myb every tear tht i have lost, i have built back myself from the shattered pieces to stay strong at least for others around me. but this is only going to last for this moment...

i am a happpiiee person living through my problems cuz i realize ... it all planned by Him for the best...
so in look for answers i turn to the Bible!
you see... i am a very not so committed person when it cumes to reading continously, or even exercising LOL ... but hey doesnt mean i am not responsible ... certain things arent juss my cup of tea... so like any average person i love to lazy around too...(but hate the feeling of wasting my day)

i do not kno how far this will continue but i am in look for sum answers, but i have no questions
myb all i am seeking is sum sorta knowledge to satisfy my hunger, my need in this life.
not knowing where to head and not knowing where this will end .... i begin.

the past is dead... we are captives in our odd and sorry human situation. The Hebrews were restless searchers for meaning in our human condition. Reading their inspired literature should challenge you to go on with a faithful search for meaning in your own situation.

- Suja

A Fragile Life...

well i figured i would start off with a meaning to my blog title...
nothing as sort of a lecture explaination... i will leave you with this thought

A fragile life ... that holds a few chapters to it

how many of you bother to step forward and flip through these chapters... it is completely upto you!


- Suja